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If I'm Okay, You’ll Be Okay: A Passage To Motherhood

If I'm Okay, You’ll Be Okay: A Passage To Motherhood

I’m sure you can recall the moment that you found out you were expecting your first child, the excitement, the innocence, the insecurity and the f...
Go forth

Go forth

As a lifelong sufferer of general anxiety and panic my penultimate craving is safety.  I want to stay secure & protected, always.  I want clot...

Tears in the bathroom

"You are strong and you are safe," she says. I've always had a complicated relationship with tears and today is no different.  I'm less than twen...
Behind The Scenes @ Burt's Bees

Behind The Scenes @ Burt's Bees

I didn't have anything written as I reached, the first of ten speakers, for the microphone. I was standing, bathed in natural light, on the second...
Easy Fix

Easy Fix

With me, there is no easy fix for my anxiety.  I've been navigating it since I was about nine years old.  I recently looked back through old journ...
Changeable Mood

Changeable Mood

I’m queen of the changeable mood.   One day I wake up energized and ready to conquer my to-do list moutain. I’m mother of the year, poised, confi...

No more shame: Even 'good moms' like me face postpartum depression and anxiety

The first thing I want you to know is that I am okay. Or, by common measurements, beyond okay. Successful. Fulfilled. Sane. I do doctor’s appointments, the school schedule, I am on time, I cook real meals, pick raspberries, read books, counsel businesswomen, run companies, manage employees, craft products, design packaging, fill kiddie pools, pick tomatoes, water the garden, go grocery shopping, take care of grandmothers in nursing homes, recycle, and have happy kids. I even sleep well.

The second thing I want you to know is I know fear: the paralysis of breath, the spinning mind, the utter overwhelm.